I’ve written before about ‘me time’ and focusing more of my time on the things that are important to me. But, until now, all I’ve really done is added things to my schedule of life – like running. This is great for me mentally and physically, but really it’s just adding on top of all the other things I have going on.
I am a mother first and foremost but also a wife, daughter, sister and friend. I want to fight Duchenne and find a cure, but don’t want to miss out on being ‘present’ in my children’s lives.
So, I’ve now made a big decision and stepped down from my voluntary positions on two charity boards. I’ve decided that I can be this lady that everyone says ‘I don’t know how you do it’ in another form – the duchenne mum you see will now be able to focus on her and her own cubs for once. Solely. And that’s enough.
It’s not for us all – and I still work too btw – but the one thing I’ve always wanted is to be a mummy. It’s what I’m good at – I hope. And I want to be that mummy that can play when you get home from school, who can help with spellings, teach you to read, just always be there. Because,
time is precious, and I want to spend it with the people that mean the most to me
I’ve not let anything slip over the last 4 years of doing these voluntary roles – but I feel like I might and I also feel like my ‘to do’ list is ridiculous. Let’s be honest when you have a productive day, go to your list and nothing you’ve done was on it, you realise you have too many plates to spin!
Now to totally think about my life – project managing our build; how we are going to furnish our house once it’s built; chasing appointments for William; keep running and keep living with a smile on my face that’s true and not forced!
If you see me being asked to step up or sign up to anything, give me a nudge and remind me to say ‘no’ – for now!
I’m still fighting the fight and I’ll never stop.